Happy Birthday 2 me....

i'm 15 2day:)...
got ma present b4 ma b'day.. :)
a pair of poh kong pearl earing from my beloved mummy
a cup of famous amos chocolate from ma cousin bro-rajesh
a phone pouch from my darling- Crystal
a phone pouch from my another darling- Ducky

i'm so damn bored.. wad a wonderful birthday... haih...

ppl who wished me..
1st. Vicky :D
2nd. Kharte
3rd. ChienLing
4. Renae
5. Parents
6. Tharan
7. Ducky
8. Vicky
9. Aleko Mama
10. Bhi
11. Rajesh
12. Tharan

thats all i guess...

emo babe is back ♥

Attention 2 ppl out there!

i noe that i'm loud n fierce...
but do u noe y??
its becoz i get annoyed when u ppl come 2 me only when u ALL need help 2 get sumthing done!... so i'm angry n i'm showing u my anger!
do u come 2 me when u have sumthing good 2 share? NO!
look, i love helping ppl tat need help... but i realize i dun get any single benefit by helping them, not even a lil thanks.. where i'll only be tension n scolding u guys out loud (which u ALL hate so much..) juz 4 u ppl out there 2 get da damn thing done!...
wad can i do?? thats me.... i've tried changing but i can't...
u think i love scolding ppl out loud??..... how do u feel when EVERYONE come 2 u at 1 time when they need sumthing?
maybe i have 2 b selfish start 2day...
if u guys ask me question, my answer will be: " DUNNO"..
if u ask y, my answer will be :"coz i'm dumb n stupid"..
ppl out there get this in ur mind " i hate it when u keep asking me da same question" (can't u juz concentrate when i'm explaining? rite, so how do u feel when sum 1 keep repeating da same question, n ezpecting u 2 keep explaining? isn't tht annoying?)

honestly i wnna telll u this kinda long time..
i 've never felt that u were true 2 me!i realize u juz dun like it when i'm better than u!
FYI, i hate sharing my misrable story wit u coz i realize u only noe how 2 remind me continuously that i'm like a piece of shit (indirectly).
ask ur ownself, have u ever talk about my good side??
ask ur ownself, y m i mad at u?
dun ask me if it is u, it is u!


i only got 2 TRUE frens..
who will correct me when i'm wrong,
who will tell me properly n not gossip about me,
who will not backstab or either betray me.
who will not only be with me when they need help..

y is everyone keep talkking her bad n not bout her good ♥

update!

it have been a long time since i last blogged..
short update..

Friday 5/6/09: went 2 uncle's hs at bukit jelutong. stay up till 3 sumthing. disturbed ppl.
Saturday 6/6/09: went sunway pyramid wit cousin.. wanted 2 watch movie, but da q was so damn long. n so v decided not 2 watch since its not a must. then v went for bowling.
Sunday 7/6/09: went mid valley.
Monday 8/6/09: went KL. same back evening. went tuition. had a bad news.
Tuesday 9/6/09: went Ken's hs. no 1 was there. came back. went again at 5 n teman-ed them went bk 7.30.. BRO'S BIRTHDAY.
Wednesday 10/6/09: went shah alam 2 my mom's frens hs. came bk at 7.30.
THURSDAY 11/6/09: dunno?? mite b going 2 ken's hs again wit chienling ltr.

will update my pics after editing.. :)

Fruits i ♥

suddenly tot of writing boud fruit i love!

Mango
Mangosteen
Watermelon
Pear
Grapes
Rambutan
Orange
Apple
Pineapple
Kiwi
Banana
Strawberry
Star-fruit
Coconut

she never get bored eating them ♥

It takes
a minute to have a crush on someone,
an hour to like someone
and
a day to love someone
but
it takes a lifetime to forget someone.

There r no good-byes,
where ever u r,
u’ll always be in her heart ♥

Feel better now.

there is always space 4 2 of them in m heart. i dunno y. n i dunno how 2 make it 1. i'm afraid i have 2 hurt 1 of them. hmmm. making decision is so hard.. still i got 2 do sumthing..

A hug
for you means
I need you.
A kiss
for you means
I love you.
A call
for you means
I’m missing
you.

she hope life is not a joke,
bcoz she dun get it ♥

Relationships are like glass.
Sometimes it’s better to leave them broken
than try to hurt yourself

putting it back

together.

but she juz can't leave it like that ♥

Why isn't there anyone who understands me???
Why isn't there anyone who noes how i feel???

she juz dun get it ♥

to da person i left without saying a word.

i believe one day u will read this.


i left u bcoz i can't b like wad u wan. n i lied 2 u over n over again. wad i told u was all lies. dun trust me. dun wait for me. i dun worth ur time. u r good n i believe there is some one else who worth it. i'm sorry 4 wad i've done. i noe a single sorry can't make any dff. but i dunno wad 2 do.
:'(


i'm not a good girl.
i'm not like wad u thought.
i'm not good at all.
i'm a liar!
i'm a hypocrite!
i'm harsh!
i'm not polite!
i'm an idiotic person!
i'm stupid!
i'm dumb!
i'm bad!
i'm selfish!
i'm like a guy!
i'm not wad u think i am!


hate me please.

she dunno wad is she suppose 2 do ♥

A ruffled mind makes a restless pillow.

i cudn't sleep well last night. thinking wad shud i do?. running away from it doesn't help. i noe, some how i need 2 face it, now or next time. i still have to. wad shud i do? make both of them hate me, n 4gt about love? or shud i keep going? its not fair 4 both of them. wad shud i do? ppl told me that they dun understand me bcoz i've never let them to. have u tried understanding me? maybe when u ask me 2 tell u sumthing. i refuse to do so. its because i noe u well n i noe wad u wud say if u get 2 noe da story of my life. i admit that i have more haters than lovers because da way i behave n speech makes lots of them (almost each n every1) hate me, but y dun u both hate me to? i dun worth u guys' time. I'm simply useless!

to ppl out there. dun fall for me. i'm not worth it. hate me is better than loving me.!

wad is she suppose 2 do? ♥

Confession of a big fat liar ♥

i dunno wad 2 do now.
i'm confused!
i really dunnoe wad 2 do??
only way is 2 suicide.. shud i?
how can i sleep when there is something on my mind??
when thousands of questions appearing on my mind?
mistakes upon mistakes, lies upon lies.
wad m i suppose 2 do?
if i tell him da truth, he wud kill me 4 it, how cud i face him?
n i can't leave him like how i left him,
bcoz it will be so not fair 4 him.
i prefer being wit him than him bcoz he doesn't get ngry like how he does.
i prefer being wit him than him bcoz he cool me down when i'm angry.
i prefer being wit him than him bcoz he let me tease him as much as i wan.
i prefer being wit him than him bcoz he accept da way i am.
yet i still feel pity for him, y do u still love me. i lied 2 u again n again.
n y can't u juz find 4 sum1 better.?
i'm not worth both of u.
i'm so useless. why do u guys still like me??


A. suicide
B. be a lesbian
C. i dun have any choice.

save her! ♥

Marley & Me

i was so damn bored last night, so i decided to watch Marley & me, that i borrowed.

"Marley & Me" is a romantic drama.
After their wedding,
newspaper writers John and
Jennifer Grogan move to Florida.
In an attempt to stall
Jennifer's "biological clock",
John gives her a puppy.
While the puppy-Marley
grows into 100 pound dog,
he loses none of his
puppy energy or rambunctiousness.
Marley's antics give John
rich material for his newspaper column.
As the Grogans mature and
have children of their own,
Marley continues to
test everyone's patience
by acting like
the world's most
impulsive dog.

she feel so sad that da dog died :'( ♥

God! what did i do???
y did u made me in confusion?
maybe because i told him i'm bored.
he gave me sumthing 2 think about.
thank you God!
u r always great!

she said thank you God ♥

i'm so damn bored!!!
wad m i suppose 2 do..
give me sumthing 2 play.
i'm going kuku!
so damn fucking bored...
save me!
or i'm gna jump down da building!
arghhh!!!!

she miss her boo ♥