heyzz

sorry 4 not updating my blog.. :)

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God gave us two ears to hear,

two eyes to see and two hands to hold.

But why did God give us only one heart?

Because he wants us to find the other one.

Is the word "love" important?
I don't know but for me, you are more important.
Do you know why?
Because how can I say "I love you" if you're not here.

A cupid asked me "why are you sad?",thinking of you I answered "because I miss him", then I heard the cupid giggle...I looked up and began to smile and said "oh, it's you!"

They said that if you are unable to sleep, it's because there's someone thinking about you...surely that person misses you. That's why if you can't sleep, sorry, I can't help it.

Back then I thought I was the unluckiest person in the world, then I looked at you and smiled. Why? Because no matter how unlucky I was, it was worth it because of you.

In love, the past is not important, but the present. Experience is more relevant than the pain you went through. The only thing that will make it stronger is forgiveness and not the retorting of sin.

God is so good.

He knows where a person will be happy,

where they can love and be loved,

where heaven on earth is.

Now I know why he put me near you.

Any guy can love a thousand girls...but only a rare guy can love one girl in a thousand ways

In every girls life there will always be those three guys...the one she loves, the one she hates, and the one she cant get enough of...and in the end...they're all the same guy.

Find that guy that will

pick up every piece of your shattered heart

& put it back together;

Replacing it with a piece of his.

I love you not because I need you, I need you because I love you

If you asked me how many times you have crossed my mind, I would say once, because you never really left…

huggies<3

listen!

Kisses
blown r kisses wasted.
Kisses
aint kisses unless they r tasted.
Kisses
spread germs n germs r hated.
So kiss me baby;
I'm
vaccinated.




I love you, not for what you are, but for what I am when I am with you.

To: Naimah Ahmad Sazaki

Don't cry because its over, Smile because it happened!

cheer up dude!
ends#

huggies<3

created fb.

i have x choise. coz i can't install da msn thingy. so i can't chat. i feel so damn boring. nt yt eat b'fast aso. hehe... adding frens through fb now. so that i can chat. really boring lar.

sorrry for da delay..

was freaking tired s'day. so i x sempat wanna blog. went 2 school early in da morning, then went mum's fren's hs. then 2 da club. lepaked with sarn. went back home around 3.30. then i udn remeber wadi did. s i noe i was freaking tired.

yeappy.....

was so bored when i woke up in da morning. so decided 2 go 2 da spects shop 2 learn 2 put on ma new contact lens. but then s usual ma mom wasn't at home. so had 2 go ltr. then took ma breakfast. after that was on9. but sadly cannot use msn messenger. around 3 i followed ma mom.. but i went 2 da shop only around 4.30. was learning laa~ mum came, n she was like "faster lar. i need 2 go fetch ppl ad, faster faster" i was like.. wtcrap, can't u c i'm learning?.. "u noe wad? mummy go 1st, i walk back home"... after a while she went ad. then ony i get 2 learn in peace. then drank teh o ice limao while walking back. took sum pics. but can't really c. first i chosed turquoise, then every1 was like pick sterling gray lar~ it will b nice. so i changed it. :)



have some look:

~eyes that lies~

she's free

was so damn bored!!

was excited!!!

told u guys v played pool... they used all kinda way 2 paly poollllll.


Joshua's way of doing it...!!




ChienLing's way of doint it... !!

hellloooww!!!!!!!

i'm back!!!!...

at last its over! hope i'll get a lappy soon. must brain wash ma dad!! :) 4get about studies nw. went mc d after da disaster ends. then went 2 club. was kinda boring. its like. when da xm'x not over, i felt there's so many things to do after pmr. but i realize it was kinda boring. wna go get sudoku n a rubik's cube! its gna be fun. hurayyy!! sowie 2 all da spm candidates.

deepavali is around da corner. n going 2 c ma cousins -so excited. its ad 5 n i havent take ma lunch, dun feel hungry- dunnoe y. n i did not take nap even i slept only 4 n a half hours. took sum pics. wil upload them ltr. n yea. sowie 2 those who msged me. i dun have cdt 2 reply. will reply when i top up aite. :) i x sabar wna go shopping. but then. i dunno can or not. huhu.. :(

she's happy:)

to all my beloved frens:

pmr is around the corner...
so yeah.. i got 2 work hard 2 get the latest apple lappy..
its gna be awesome if i can get it...
well... so 2 get it i must definitely work hard.
so u noe wad... i wun be touching da comp till october 13, 10 am...
after that its gna b MERDEKA!!!!!
can't wait..
hope wad i plan will work..
k then i hope ma blog will still be alive till i return back..
:) k then.. its time 4 me 2 stay away from da comp... k...

♥ gud luck baby!

awesome..

As i looked up, i saw da smiling moon surrounded by twinkling stars. da night was still young so I decided 2 spend another hour blogging..

Went i was in school 2day, looking out from da window, I can c tat da trees r green n there r red roses too.. It feels great 2 b greeted by such a sweet scent, with a cool breeze caressing my skin. how i wish my everyday starts like this.. ain't it awesome? with him beside me, warming me up... when da wind blew, how i wish he was behind me hugging me 2 make sure i dun feel too cold.. sharing joy n sorrow wit him throught out this wonderfull morning.. it was merely my imagination.. hmmmm.. i missed u so badly where i actually said "vicky, i wan u 2 b right here now, with me!" it was so disheartening dat he did not turn out.. n i realize tat there is 1 pain i often feel which u will nvr know bcoz it is caused by da absence of u. i suffered in silent. as da sun glared at me mercilessly, i could not help but wonder how long i had 2 endure da pain inflicted by da disappearance of my baby.. for some reasons, i felt extraordinaryly cold...

.....n suddently da bell rang.. owh! how time flies.... so fast i had 2 go in 2 da damn class n wait 4 my tcher...

♥ she is still missing him :)

p.s. : i love u!

Renae! i miss u so much!...
i need a tight hug from u..

hug her as tight as u can ♥

I'm still alone

i'm trying my best 2 change..
i do wna change,
but i juz can't...
i'm so sorry...
i'm imperfect....
pls accept me da way i am......

she hate herself ♥

Happy Birthday 2 me....

i'm 15 2day:)...
got ma present b4 ma b'day.. :)
a pair of poh kong pearl earing from my beloved mummy
a cup of famous amos chocolate from ma cousin bro-rajesh
a phone pouch from my darling- Crystal
a phone pouch from my another darling- Ducky

i'm so damn bored.. wad a wonderful birthday... haih...

ppl who wished me..
1st. Vicky :D
2nd. Kharte
3rd. ChienLing
4. Renae
5. Parents
6. Tharan
7. Ducky
8. Vicky
9. Aleko Mama
10. Bhi
11. Rajesh
12. Tharan

thats all i guess...

emo babe is back ♥

Attention 2 ppl out there!

i noe that i'm loud n fierce...
but do u noe y??
its becoz i get annoyed when u ppl come 2 me only when u ALL need help 2 get sumthing done!... so i'm angry n i'm showing u my anger!
do u come 2 me when u have sumthing good 2 share? NO!
look, i love helping ppl tat need help... but i realize i dun get any single benefit by helping them, not even a lil thanks.. where i'll only be tension n scolding u guys out loud (which u ALL hate so much..) juz 4 u ppl out there 2 get da damn thing done!...
wad can i do?? thats me.... i've tried changing but i can't...
u think i love scolding ppl out loud??..... how do u feel when EVERYONE come 2 u at 1 time when they need sumthing?
maybe i have 2 b selfish start 2day...
if u guys ask me question, my answer will be: " DUNNO"..
if u ask y, my answer will be :"coz i'm dumb n stupid"..
ppl out there get this in ur mind " i hate it when u keep asking me da same question" (can't u juz concentrate when i'm explaining? rite, so how do u feel when sum 1 keep repeating da same question, n ezpecting u 2 keep explaining? isn't tht annoying?)

honestly i wnna telll u this kinda long time..
i 've never felt that u were true 2 me!i realize u juz dun like it when i'm better than u!
FYI, i hate sharing my misrable story wit u coz i realize u only noe how 2 remind me continuously that i'm like a piece of shit (indirectly).
ask ur ownself, have u ever talk about my good side??
ask ur ownself, y m i mad at u?
dun ask me if it is u, it is u!


i only got 2 TRUE frens..
who will correct me when i'm wrong,
who will tell me properly n not gossip about me,
who will not backstab or either betray me.
who will not only be with me when they need help..

y is everyone keep talkking her bad n not bout her good ♥

update!

it have been a long time since i last blogged..
short update..

Friday 5/6/09: went 2 uncle's hs at bukit jelutong. stay up till 3 sumthing. disturbed ppl.
Saturday 6/6/09: went sunway pyramid wit cousin.. wanted 2 watch movie, but da q was so damn long. n so v decided not 2 watch since its not a must. then v went for bowling.
Sunday 7/6/09: went mid valley.
Monday 8/6/09: went KL. same back evening. went tuition. had a bad news.
Tuesday 9/6/09: went Ken's hs. no 1 was there. came back. went again at 5 n teman-ed them went bk 7.30.. BRO'S BIRTHDAY.
Wednesday 10/6/09: went shah alam 2 my mom's frens hs. came bk at 7.30.
THURSDAY 11/6/09: dunno?? mite b going 2 ken's hs again wit chienling ltr.

will update my pics after editing.. :)

Fruits i ♥

suddenly tot of writing boud fruit i love!

Mango
Mangosteen
Watermelon
Pear
Grapes
Rambutan
Orange
Apple
Pineapple
Kiwi
Banana
Strawberry
Star-fruit
Coconut

she never get bored eating them ♥

It takes
a minute to have a crush on someone,
an hour to like someone
and
a day to love someone
but
it takes a lifetime to forget someone.

There r no good-byes,
where ever u r,
u’ll always be in her heart ♥

Feel better now.

there is always space 4 2 of them in m heart. i dunno y. n i dunno how 2 make it 1. i'm afraid i have 2 hurt 1 of them. hmmm. making decision is so hard.. still i got 2 do sumthing..

A hug
for you means
I need you.
A kiss
for you means
I love you.
A call
for you means
I’m missing
you.

she hope life is not a joke,
bcoz she dun get it ♥

Relationships are like glass.
Sometimes it’s better to leave them broken
than try to hurt yourself

putting it back

together.

but she juz can't leave it like that ♥

Why isn't there anyone who understands me???
Why isn't there anyone who noes how i feel???

she juz dun get it ♥

to da person i left without saying a word.

i believe one day u will read this.


i left u bcoz i can't b like wad u wan. n i lied 2 u over n over again. wad i told u was all lies. dun trust me. dun wait for me. i dun worth ur time. u r good n i believe there is some one else who worth it. i'm sorry 4 wad i've done. i noe a single sorry can't make any dff. but i dunno wad 2 do.
:'(


i'm not a good girl.
i'm not like wad u thought.
i'm not good at all.
i'm a liar!
i'm a hypocrite!
i'm harsh!
i'm not polite!
i'm an idiotic person!
i'm stupid!
i'm dumb!
i'm bad!
i'm selfish!
i'm like a guy!
i'm not wad u think i am!


hate me please.

she dunno wad is she suppose 2 do ♥

A ruffled mind makes a restless pillow.

i cudn't sleep well last night. thinking wad shud i do?. running away from it doesn't help. i noe, some how i need 2 face it, now or next time. i still have to. wad shud i do? make both of them hate me, n 4gt about love? or shud i keep going? its not fair 4 both of them. wad shud i do? ppl told me that they dun understand me bcoz i've never let them to. have u tried understanding me? maybe when u ask me 2 tell u sumthing. i refuse to do so. its because i noe u well n i noe wad u wud say if u get 2 noe da story of my life. i admit that i have more haters than lovers because da way i behave n speech makes lots of them (almost each n every1) hate me, but y dun u both hate me to? i dun worth u guys' time. I'm simply useless!

to ppl out there. dun fall for me. i'm not worth it. hate me is better than loving me.!

wad is she suppose 2 do? ♥

Confession of a big fat liar ♥

i dunno wad 2 do now.
i'm confused!
i really dunnoe wad 2 do??
only way is 2 suicide.. shud i?
how can i sleep when there is something on my mind??
when thousands of questions appearing on my mind?
mistakes upon mistakes, lies upon lies.
wad m i suppose 2 do?
if i tell him da truth, he wud kill me 4 it, how cud i face him?
n i can't leave him like how i left him,
bcoz it will be so not fair 4 him.
i prefer being wit him than him bcoz he doesn't get ngry like how he does.
i prefer being wit him than him bcoz he cool me down when i'm angry.
i prefer being wit him than him bcoz he let me tease him as much as i wan.
i prefer being wit him than him bcoz he accept da way i am.
yet i still feel pity for him, y do u still love me. i lied 2 u again n again.
n y can't u juz find 4 sum1 better.?
i'm not worth both of u.
i'm so useless. why do u guys still like me??


A. suicide
B. be a lesbian
C. i dun have any choice.

save her! ♥

Marley & Me

i was so damn bored last night, so i decided to watch Marley & me, that i borrowed.

"Marley & Me" is a romantic drama.
After their wedding,
newspaper writers John and
Jennifer Grogan move to Florida.
In an attempt to stall
Jennifer's "biological clock",
John gives her a puppy.
While the puppy-Marley
grows into 100 pound dog,
he loses none of his
puppy energy or rambunctiousness.
Marley's antics give John
rich material for his newspaper column.
As the Grogans mature and
have children of their own,
Marley continues to
test everyone's patience
by acting like
the world's most
impulsive dog.

she feel so sad that da dog died :'( ♥

God! what did i do???
y did u made me in confusion?
maybe because i told him i'm bored.
he gave me sumthing 2 think about.
thank you God!
u r always great!

she said thank you God ♥

i'm so damn bored!!!
wad m i suppose 2 do..
give me sumthing 2 play.
i'm going kuku!
so damn fucking bored...
save me!
or i'm gna jump down da building!
arghhh!!!!

she miss her boo ♥

its getting late..
gtg...
will blog when m free..
-toddles-

her bed is waitng for her ♥

heaven started!
holidays plan..

1. dunno
2. depends
3. up 2 my mind
4. save me
5. i only know that m going on tuesday 9/6/09
(my bro's biday, but not going out wit him)
6. friday 12/6/09, might b going 2 jazz's pool..
7. da rest of da days will be studying lor.. wadelse..huhu!
8. pray 2 GOD everything goes rite..

she want's 2 spend her days with da one who cares n not da one who doesn't ♥

i'm back..
xm was okay i guess..
i've no idea wad 2 update about...

lets talk bout wad i did 2day:
1. woke up in the morning.
2. replied Puvan's msg (sowie wei, tertido).
3. replied Jazz's msg (sowie wei, was still sleeping).
4. wash up n took my b'fast..
5. msged Vicky
6. on da comp, 2 edit ma pic.. (will upload ltr yar)
7. went hospital 1 somthing.
8. came back at 5.
9. ate nasi goreng ayam.
10. took medic.
11. 4gt wad i did.
12. mandi.
13. took dinner.
14. on9
15 blogging & smsing David
16. DEPENDS...

waiting 4 someone 2 call now ♥

mid term starts next week.. :(

mid term!!
20 may -27 may!!
will be back 28 may (chienling's birthay).. :)
then will blog blog n blog! :)
ta da!
tc aite.. wish me luck if possible.. :)

she hope she will do well in her mid term xm :) ♥

Wadz happening in Sri Lanka

CAUTION!!!
weak heart DO NOT SEE!!

where is the head?

he is just a 13 year old student..

What this child did?

This child spoke tamil, thats the only reason, they did this.. :(

Srilankan Army attacked hospital last month

only 1 thing wrong thing is, this child is tamil child.

she is speechless ♥

Mummy! Speciallly 2 u.. !

Dear mummy, ♥

stay with me, mummy!
u're everything 2 me!

Thank you for loving me,
Having me in.
All you have given
Now I hold within.
Kid in a vacuum
You made your own,
Or else I had been
Unborn and unknown.*

*Or, "Unloved and alone."

I know we sometimes argue, and
I sometimes blow my lid.
But I still love you very much.
I'm only just a kid.

Sometimes I need to push against
The fences you erect,
Even though I know they're there
To shelter and protect.

I know you want the best for me
And to keep me from all harm.
I just want you to know I couldn't
Have a better mom.

keep smiling! :)

Happy mummy's day!♥

This is ME..

i am alone
i am crushed
i am broken
i am ripped apart
i am hollowed
i am depleted
i am confused
i am unsure
i am scared
i am uncertain
i am anxious
i am frightened
i am empty
i am defeated

she is tired ♥

Sad day but it was a gud day..

Saturday 11/4/09

got school 2day. (ganti hari raya haji)
so went school. juz 4 fun.
rather than staying at home n sleeping n doing nothing.. :)
wad really happened was

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1st we had high jump 4 guys, long jump 4 guys n da gurls. n so on...
was goin gud. (i ponteng kelas 2day)..
was hanging with da form 2s n few of my frens..
1 guy came wit his foot bleeding. i told him 2 go 2 da bilik kesihatan.
n told da ppl there 2 clean up 4 him n do sumthing wit it.
after when 2 check out boud high jump.
waja form 3. num 1 n 3 waja (green team) won.
after v had break. went canteen 2 get sumthing.
had some convo wit da form1s.
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TARIK TALI!!

starting wit da gurls... it was gud...
da last match (rusa vs waja)
waja won. but many thing happened.
1. 1 waja chinese gurl fainted rite after da match.
carry her 2 bilik kesihatan.
while carrying her there, heard clement saying :"need so many 2 carry her wan meh?"
<>
she was fine after awhile.
2. while taking care of da chinese gurl, 1 indian group went next door.
i tot it was normal. went in 2 help.
coz da gurl was speaking in tamil. n i was da translator there.
i help her massage her arm. coz she said its very pain. n she can't move it.
n another help 2 massage her back. its was freaky.
< style="text-align: center;"> "u better go hospital now. give me ur mom's num. i call her here 2 fetch u 2
clinic/hospital. she said that her mom can't come. so told me 2 call her dad.
i took da num n ran quickly 2 pejabat. running up n down i think almost for 5 times.
n went 2 da front gate, under da hot sun. waiting 4 her dad.
he was there after sumtime.
i walk out n told him 2 drive his car in.
then v carried her.
i was........................................................................................................

she told God its not fair ♥

Skip school 2day..

was not feeling well last night.
ate porridge n went 2 bed.
morning woke up, had strong headach.
decided not 2 go school.
n went 2 bed n slept back.
woke up at 11.02. shower n all.
ate breakfast.
blogging.
boring!

she hope she will get well soon♥

gtg

its 12.03 am.
n i'm still awake.
gtg. adioz!~
muax..!

she's sleepy ♥

Lonely (wed's post)

I did not manage 2 psot it s'day bcoz i din hav enuf time.
s'day after school, i stayed back for koko. 4 ur info, my frens r mostly prefects, ya, so i had 2 go down all alone 2 hav my lunch. *hate being lonely* while walking down da hill, msged my sayang-iMah. n i heard a familliar voice calling my name, i turned back n looked, it was samson.

Samson: Shal~
me: yesh?
Samson: (as usual) going 4 koko?
me: yea.
Samson: y walking down alone?
me: heyo! dun ask lar.
Samson: y so lonely?

-i ignored.

-tears almost dropped.

-v walk seperately.

-he disappeared.

-keep walking.

-walking without destination.

-suddenly outta no where i heard a car "honked" n i realize i'm not suppose 2 walk middle of da road wit my sweet time.

-walking down da stairs opposite Sweetly.

-n i saw T-jun Kid. ( i muttered: "God sent me someone.")

Kid: Yow~
me: hi. what r u doing here?
Kid: finding for Shyong Qing.
me: owh.

-he went straight, passing by Red Book, searching for her.

-i realize i was wrong that da God actually sent someone 2 me.

-y not i creat my own partner?

me: T-jun Kid! r u alone?
Kid: yea.
me: erm. teman me.
Kid: can aso.

-(yay! i'm not that lonely)

-as i was sad, i bought many things 2 eat. *bored*

walk back 2 school with Kid. Sat down at da dewan terbuka n ate wad i bought. went in locker room, saw Daneeta n Samson. talked wit them. times up 4 koko 2 start. as time goes by, koko end. took my bag told my fren i chow 1st, n i went..

i hate it when i have 2 be all alone!

she hope ppl understands how she felt♥

she feel better now♥

she hope it won't happen again♥

April Fool's day..

i have many things 2 spit about,
sadly i dun have enough time.
n i'm kinda blank now.
i haven't take my shower yet. :)huhu
waiting 4 sum1 2 mandikan me!
i will post more stuff when i'm free..
till then, this is all.. :(

she wants 2 go n mandi!♥